a friend like Ben

tiba-tiba aja gw kangen ma si Ben ini .. dan iTunes gw mainlah Ben versi Conny Talbot ..
ohh Ben! I miss the way you annoy me :(

Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And you, my friend, will see
You've got a friend in me
(you've got a friend in me)

Ben, you're always running here and there
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind
And don't like what you find
There's one thing you should know
You've got a place to go
(you've got a place to go)

I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
Ben, most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(a friend) Like Ben
(like Ben) Like Ben

tonight I text him. until now he didn't reply anythings to me.
Ben. what is going on there!
miss you!!

teach (er) problems .

I heard the news that is about my high school
my friends told me last night .

pertama kenapa sihh guru-guru enggak bisa mature sedikit. menyikapi pergaulan yang ada sekarang ini.

"mam or sir, we are not kids anymore. we grow up! so please do not prohibit to doing
this one or that one. just monitoring us! actually we already know (well) which one is
the good things or bad things"


so please support us! give your advices to make us keep our creativity. sebenernya apa sihh masalah yang ada? ketika sejumlah siswa kreatif memberikan proposal untuk membuat acara antar sekolah? uang? waktu? atau trauma? sebagai seorang yang lebih berpengalaman di tempat kita menimba ilmu. seorang guru harusnya bisa memberikan nasihat dengan tidak membentak muridnya. I am really sure you all know it. your experiences in teaching the student. setidaknya sikapi semua itu dengan cara yang biasa aja. my experience: baru ngeliat siswa membawa segumpal kertas. seorang guru pembina organisasi siswa langsung saja mengkusutkan muka!! plis dehh pak! biasa aja kali ,,

the problems is money? are you sure? I've got something in the college life. kita itu enggak usah seperti pengemis! yang kerjanya hanya meminta!! here!! yang kita harapin itu donation and sponsors. so many companies outside which want to support the event. the problem here only for the concept!

saya pernah membaca artikel dikoran ibu kota. the point is hanya guru yang bisa mengikuti arus pergaulan sekarang ini. hanya dia yang dapat bertahan. benar juga artikel itu! saya setuju benar .. kenapa hanya ada beberapa guru yang bisa menerima perubahan itu!!

letter to God: actually what is the real problems that facing this case!! maybe mindset! the way for the people thought. Thanks God. I have done my high school era . hihihihi

nyekoteng!!

hari ini cukup membosankan!
pertama: enggak ada yang bisa disms.
kedua: enggak jadi nonton valentine's day
ketiga: hujan deras!

dan mulailahh hal-hal gila keluar dari pikiran gw!!
tiba-tiba aja ada hasrat pengen nari-nari dan nyanyi-nyanyi kaya kate hudson difilm NINE ..
hahaha .. (that is so impossible) ..

apalagi kalo enggak twitteran dihp ituu!! hihihi .. dan (tararara) kesannya apa aja yahh!! hehehe .. dan gw mau janjian akan bertemu tmen sma dahulu kala . my partner in crime . hhihi .. si om!! (iyahh enggak om) . kita janjian mau nyekoteng! hehehe . akhirnya waktu gw tiba dari giant-melatimas langsung lahh gw tancap motor ke rumahnya. tanpa berbasa-basi kita langsung nyekoteng!! hihih

ternyata tuu abnag sekoteng udah nunggu kita gitu. abis waktu kiita dateng dia udh mempersiapkan spanduk yg bakal dijadiin tmpt duduk! hehehe ..
bercerita pengalaman gw ngampus di PU .. dia juga cerita betapa sulitnya kuliahnya di UMN ..
(kayanya gw baru sadar dehh om, kayaknya masalah kesulitan ini adanya ma kita dehh bukan di kampus kita) hehehe ..

seru banget setelahh lama banget kita enggak ketemu dan mengobrol ria !! (kalo enggak salah td kita mau ngebicarain masalah majalah tempo hari yahh) hehehe .. kita jadi ngelalang buana gitu tadi . hehehe ..

see u next time my besties .. :)

(actually) I likes

I felt something wrong for this two days
I thought a people smelt a rat of me
I afraid
I feel guilty

This situation is not the way looks like in the some movies
when the boys seeks the girls and find out what going on her life
or the way when the boys feel in love with the girls suddenly when he know the girls is love him too

this is only the scenario that I made only just for the doubt
I felt some think wrong in some people so I should figure it out

and today!! I feel guilty
I afraid when I will meet that people
actually, this is a emotional feeling

I like the way when the people smiling to every one
I like the accent that is too east
I like the politeness of that people
God, please don't says if I like that people!! arghhh ..

the power goes down!!

hari ini I feels so happy :)
I did my presentation even this presentation is the worse one ( I think)
and don't to remind what I have in morning! the exam!! arghhh!!

I thought I will write my blog in Library! Our Adam Kurniawan's Library!
but the power goes down when I want tried to connect my internet access to the wi-fi area in campus, and suddenly the power goes down!!

apakah sekali kampus ini!! tibatiba saja mati lampuu . without the information before!!
hohohoho ..

tapii lampunya sudah menyala!! taraararara .. (toreng-troreng)
tapi hujan lebat di luar kampus!! tidakk!! saya harus menumpang pulang!! untung ada ka'ola ..
nebeng-nebeng!! asikk!!!

:))

midterm exam : 5th semester

First I would say:
thanks god I have done my midterm today. for all my accounting friends who corporate each other well (absolutely!!) hihhihi ..

my first exam is Entrepreneurship, Mr. Muhril asked to make a business plan for our midterm score grade. In the first month of this 5th semester me and friends of mine done it. now, we don't need to make it (again) thanks sir!!
FYI : my business plan's thickness around 60 - 80 pages. what a great number!! slept in the mid of night :)) . sometimes we forgot to eat . and we leave all of our subject! hahaha the priority just only for this Entrepreneur!! hope I can raise A grade for this subject . amin ..

the second exam which hold in last Tuesday is Auditing 1. ohh I am really disappointed by myself. this is open book exam so I brought all my books. Mr. Faisal said there will be the CPA's question related to the inventory and I brought Mrs. Mila's hand book. Poor am I! the question (CPA's question) looks like familiar before. I've did it but unfortunately I totally forgot! even I brought the book but I didn't brought the answer sheet!! arghhh .
FYI: that CPA's question mark score is 40 and the rest of three question only for 20 marks. even I have answered the theories questions but that not enough! I expect to reach A grade for this Auditing 1. Arghhh!!

the third one is quite happy :) Accounting Information System. This also open book examination, the exam hold in the workshop room. Last night I and Ajeng learned well for this course. We high light all the theories that we thought the question will comes up. And Ohhh. I did it :) the four of six question I can did that. but the rest!! ohno .. hohoho. the rest is about drawing the flowchart. I expect the kids can do that. hehhehe . I just thought the rational one. the logic! hahaha . read the question saw the requirements and did it . hihihi

the fourth is Financial Management. Open book examination (again). I am surprised because the beadle of this exam is TJ. hahaha . we corporate each other. Actually the question is hard enough. Before I cheated sure I must answer the question that I can did. the Theories I copied it from the text book! of course I mixed it with my opinion! hehehe .. And the calculation question . ohh that so hard. I was waited for my friends answers. hehe When I had the answer I would spread it to my next friends. hehehee
FYI: I expect got A for this subject. hohoho

the last one is today! Advance Accounting 1. I worked hard for this course. I slept at 2 am. only for learned (again) what I did before the quizzes, the assignments. and I could not answer those question!! hopeless . there were two questions actually! I only can answer (balance) the second one. My lecturer said that one is the hard one. actually my answer was wrong!! all the answer!! Oh no!! I wishes there are some miracles to marked up my grade score! amin ..

those kind of experience of facing the midterm!! ahhay! I hope my score grade would not disappoint my self and also my family . amin :)
hopes in this semester I can increase my grade . amin !!

MONK.EY!!

this picture taken in Yogyakarta, Indonesia 2008

entah mengapa saya sangat terobsesi dengan monyet!! hehehe ..
rupanya yang berbulu dengan emosional yang cukup menggemaskan . Lihat saja wajahnya raguragu antara mengekspresikan kegembiraan atau kesedihan berbeda dengan tingkahnya .. hehehe . I wish someday I will have one monkey! aminn . satu hal lagi yang yang belum tercapai sejak 2009 . I wish I could take a picture with a monkey in a zoo . dan itu belum terlaksana!!! arrrghhh .

kado terindah 2010 : semoga temanteman membawa saya berfoto bersama monyet!!
FACT : kalo monyet dikasih pisang yg ijo alias yang belom mateng matanya bisa berubah jadi ijo juga lohh ..

a week with Ben

in last Wednesday when I in my way going to Resto Plaza.
Ben (Actually his name Benjamin and I called him Ben, and He is Chinese) came to me and just want to said a greeting .

me : hey Ben!!
ben : Hey! where are you going?
me : to Resto. I thought I will sick ben!
ben : Ohh really?? sick inside? or outside?

Arrrghhh Benn!! are you kidding me? I sure you guys understand it. understand what Ben means, isn't it?


In every conversation between me and Ben. I always said "Ben, Where is your Girlfriends?" and we discuss all the time about that topic "GirlFriends". haahaha . we also laugh. He admit he didn't need a girlfriends. OK!!

And yesterday he said, hey fikh, I sure I didn't need a girlfriends that I need is boyfriends!!
God! I'm Speechless. I didn't know what I have to answer that statement. hahahaha .. BEN!! I gonna miss you ..


FACT : Ben is a male. he is single. he is not a queer one. he also a hard worker. he Chinese (of course) and he love downloading Jackie-Chan Movies so he likes spend his time so long in campus only for downloading.

DAMN I MISS YOU ALOT

all the day that we spend together
we laugh all the time
we talks in every single time
and my life to be with you
YES! you are my friends
my best one
you know me well
you also understand me a lot

now this tears is falling down
when you are not in my side
I miss a thing
one thing is YOU

I don't care what people talking about US
I also don't care even people thought me as a queer
NOW!! I swear I miss you .

tell me what happen to your life today!
we can solve it together, right!
I don't want to cry anymore

remember:
YOU are the brave one
YOU are taught one
YOU are cheer-person (gogogo!!)
YOU can cross all your obstacles
I am sure .


I MISS YOU JUNN!!

GONG XI FAT CHOI

Kiong Hi!!
today is Chinese new years or Lunar new year!!
everybody cheer up for arrival of the tiger's year ..

Chinese's people believe when raining comes in the day of lunar year that means you will get more luck in this year . and the day before the Lunar year raining in Tangerang quite drizzly. what does it means? I don't know actually!! hihi

at around 8 pm my father take me to the temple in Tangerang .. wow! amazing . red in everywhere! and smoke absolutely!! I am really happy because this is my second time going to the temple. There is a Barongsai dancing in the middle of the temple and also there is a people wear a costume likes God giving the Wisit(or wasit if I am not mistaken)

I take the picture when I was there ..

1 and 2 picture I take from the outside of the temple ..
3 picture there is a man who praying in front of altar
4 picture is the second altar in the temple that have a lot of fruits and vegetables. and also the paper and light. (FYI: the temple have a rules there is no one allowed to take the meat above the altar)
5 picture is the last one I take it from the back side of temple. full of red lantern .

that's my experiences in the Lunar day . hopes I have a lot of luck in this year also my friends and my family . this year the Chinese new year coincide in valentine's day. beside getting the luck I hope I get the colorful of love in this year!

Today: My father have a plan to take me invite his friends who celebrate the Chinese New Year! Hopes I get more Angpau! hihihi .. Kiong Hi!!

where is my tears?

This tears won't be falling down
I really miss while I crying. definitely

I won't crying something that makes me sad.
I just only falling down this tears.
maybe I am a clown or some one else like a cry baby
I am not that person.

People thought I am the person who can laugh everywhere
People thought I am the person who can cheer up in every single time
Shh poor am I
this is just a pretend life.
I never suggest live in this life.

A new friends of mine said just be your self
people feels comfortable besides you
this only for a while.
there the way that we never expect where we goes to

This cry is for the loneliness and the sorrow
This cry that I expect could give freedom
and it could not.

in every smile that I give
in every lough that I should
in every respect that I could
I am only the people who don't have anything for changing

Truth Or Dare

what kind a game? the best one? or the worst one?

huh?? mainan itu telah mengungakapan rahasia terbesar dalam hidup ini kepada teman-teman saya! malu? iyalahh pastinya. disatu sisi kita bisa tahu benar pengungkapan rahasia teman-teman dan membicaraknnya. disatu lainnya itu hanya penyebar aib! membuka rahasia yang disimpan rapih dan terbongkar hanya dengan mainan! hah!! actually I hate that game but I fortunately to that game because of that I can share my secrets that makes me feel free.

Dare? Are you dare enough to do something?? Ohh. I never pick dare! I prefer to tell the truth. Dare is wasting time. Sometimes my friends ask me to do some silly or stupid things.

Saya dan teman biasa melakukan ini ketika bosan sudah datang ditengah-tengah acara malam dikafe atau restaurant atau tempat nongkrong apa saja lahh. kami memulai dengan mainan ini. itu membuat kami merasa lebih dekat. we know and understand each other. saya pernah memainkannya bersama SEBELAS @ McDonalds Kemang above 12am. atau BEREMPAT @ PizzaHut LipCik in dinner time. Sebelas-hanya kelompok teman sepermainan di kampus. saya pikir kami akan lama bertahan tapi waktu yang memutuskan semua itu. Tapi saya senang saya pernah berada diantara kalian walau hanya untuk sementara. ILOVEYOU GUYS!!

Truth or Dare
are you dare enough to tell the truth??

Obsession or Really Love

Pernah enggak sih mencintai seseorang karna obsesi? Yah! Saya pernah, ketika masa sekolah dulu. Ketika saya melihat teman-teman yang lain memiliki orang yang terkasih didekat mereka. Sebagai seorang manusia normal wajar untuk iri meskipun iri hati itu sangat tercela. Saya mencoba mengungkapan cinta yang hanya pura-pura itu. Cinta yang hanya diucapkan mulut tapi tidak dengan hati. Apa sih seorang siswa kuno berbicara cinta yang belum pantas pada masanya!

Ketika saya mulai mencari cinta itu (at that time) saya hanya mencari-cari siapakah wanita yang bisa saya cintai. tapi semua itu tidak dengan hati. apabila saya sudah sangat dekat. semua berubah menjadi sahabat!. ketika saya lebih dekat dengan mereka saya malah membencinya. itu karena mereka hidup dengan kemunafikan! kalau tidak suka bilang saja! toh semua akan berjalan seperti semula! is it true!! mereka hanya mencoba mencari kata-kata yang dapat diterima oleh pikiran tidak dengan logika! (Hey girls that one think you doesn't know about male. male works by his logic).

Ketika cinta itu berlabuh kepada seorang wanita namanya Dianita Kusumawardani. Maaf y ta! saya hanya bisa mempertahankannya untuk dua bulan saja. Saya benci LDR! maaf telah mengecewakanmu! dia pernah saya dekati ketika masa sekolah atas dulu tapi tidak saya lanjutkan karena saya terlalu sibuk dengan rutinitas ketika itu. Ujian Nasional, kursus, tugas, dan berorganisasi. Ketika saya dengan cepatnya mendapatkan Dianita dia pergi dengan cepat pula. kita harus berpisah dengan jarak!!

College Life? siapa yang tidak tergoda berada di asrama yang terdapat pria dan wanita dalam satu asrama yang terpisahkan hanya dengan pagar besi yang sekarang pun sudah koyak. Teman disana-sini berpojokan-pojokan entah apa yang mereka bicarakan! setiap kali bertemu. Di kampus, Resto, Dorm, bahkan tidak sedikit dari mereka yang berada di kamar!! huh!! Iri? hmm. sekarang saya sudah bisa berfikir sedikit lebih dewasa. (saya mengakui masih memiliki sifat kekanakan dalam diri saya).

Belajar tentang Obsesi dan Cinta. itu terinspirasi dari teman saya Adinda Annisa. teman ketika saya Sekolah Atas dia memberikan gambaran tentang konsep cinta atau hanya obsesi belaka. Masalah cinta yang terakhir saya alami. saya mengakui saya tidak benar-benar mencintainya. bukan karena saya ditolak karena kita sudah berteman sejak lama. tetapi saya belum bisa sepenuhnya menerima sifatnya (am I wrong? Yes, I think) dan itu terdapat obsesi-obsesi sampah itu. hasilnya? semua berantakan termasuk persahabatan saya. meskipun kita berdua mencoba untuk tidak membahas masalah itu. semua sudah berubah! itu memang sudah pernah dibicarakan sebelumnya oleh kami berdua dan saya sudah tahu benar resiko yang akan saya dapat! Sekarang saya hanya berharap akan datang seorang pangeran berkuda untuk sahabat saya! Amin.

Mencoba lebih dekat terhadap wanita itu agak rumit bukan untuk urusan bisnis atau pertemanan tapi cinta! (ohh!!) . Saya sekarang mencoba untuk lebih mengenal seseorang wanita. Saya suka bentuk parasnya yang cantik itu. Sikapnya? belum tahu benar. Wataknya pun demikian. Cerdasnya? yahh saya tahu itu. GPAnya 3.9 untuk ukuran anak baru! wow amazing! dia gemar membaca dan menulis blog! saya harap dia suka menonton! hehe .. tapi semua itu saya lakukan harus dengan hati-hati. apabila Tuhan memberikan kesempatan untuk mengenal dirinya lebih dekat. saya harus tidak terpancing emosi cinta itu. pelan! make sure! and do it! hehe. saya tidak mau kecerobohan itu berulangkali terulang-ulang. Now, Saya harus berkenalan dulu pastinya! agar semuanya berjalan mulus. Membenahi behavior saya yang cukup berantakan. dan memulai untuk mendekatinya.

WISH ME LUCK YAHH!!!

International Language

when the ASEAN sign the engagement with China for free trade called AFTA-China. ASEAN Free Trade Agreement with China. Ouch! Poor to my beloved country Indonesia. This country have a lack of ability in language. only an educated people who can improve the international language. Here, we have alot of traditional language and our coalescence language is Bahasa. That similar with Malay. So its so hard to understand or learn other language except some province like Jakarta, Bali, Lombok, Medan. There are many foreigner visited the province. So the Indonesian guys can improve it.

Back to the case, I study in the English Environment. I am not admit my English is good but I can understand what people said. I think I want to improve my language skills. Add the other one. the Dutch! yeah I am so interested in Dutch even they colonize my country. Unfortunately, the Dutch is not the one of UN official language. According to UN site they have six official language. English, China (Mandarin), Spain, Russian, French, and Arabic. Ohh Poor am I. I too exited in the Dutch!! Now, I should add one of those language. hmm. what the interested one? Arabic? Yeah I am Muslim. I should know the Arabic but I don't understand. Russian? My older sister very interested with this country. and she know well the Russian. the political view, economical, ohh!! gosh! am I should learn this language? China? My friends told me. He learned it since he was in primary school. And Mandarin is the hard one to learn. He told me never believe in some course that promises only three month to learn Mandarin.

I should pick one. that belongs to French or Spain. Many people like French they said French is a romantic language. when someone speak French other thought is so sexy. However I pick Spain! Its so cool I think! perhaps I can speak Spain soon. ohh hopefully! I wanna work and life abroad. God Please help me! Thank you.

open this link to prove that UN Language.

Hey Hablina!!

hablina arifianti that is her name. she is one of my besties. pertama kali ketemu. yuph! Home Resto (kamu inget gag nin). saya sedang menunggu makanan datang yang lamanya minta ampun. maklumlahh I'm Indonesian. kalo makan gratis antrinya panjang! jadinya lama bnaget nunggunya. nahh nina ini duduknya dimeja ujung deket pintu. I'm Fikhri! how about you . SKSD! that the trick when I wanna make the friends relation. hahaha . cekikikan aja disapa belaga kenal deket!! hahaha ..

setelah itu kita bersama all the time!! sampe buat acara bareng Mr. And Ms. PU 2009 . we were in the same division exactly on event div. karna saya sibuk dengan event-event dan tugas saya dan Totally forgetting nina. I really sorry for that!! bukan karena saya memiliki teman-teman baru. A BIG NO!! tapi memang karena saya sibuk! dan saya belum bisa membagi waktu untuk berkumpul dengan kamu :( .

I'm Realize she is the bestbestbest friends ever I had. she know what I wants. She also understand me a lot. Here I would like to said thank you so much nin!! Please stand besides me for a long time. Sorry for the past! Lets fixed my mistakes. And Cheer up together!! ILOVE YOU MYBESTIES . HABLINA!!

I'm happy be a part of them

This semester of my college life. I signed up for the campus organization called PUSU. That is President University Student Union. Before I chose PUSU as my organization. I'm just the ordinary student like the other. But, I like to help my friends in order to organize their events. Since junior high school I am an active student. I have a lot of experience in event through my life. In the first election of President of PUSU I am the head of campaign team of Evan and Agus. But, they defeated by Arif and Yosi. There are so many obstacle after the election began. And I have to support the winner even my team lose in the election. that's why I am joining the PUSU. Now, I being a part of PUSU in Student Affair Department as chief student activity division. wow! that a great experience. Now! I really wanna to says thank you so much for you all guys to believe in me for the job!.